There
are many times I find myself wondering why I am standing in line with these
selected people around me. Or, if I am in an elevator, why am I in the
elevator with these people? I often wonder these things. I ponder
on these things almost daily as if I am looking for some kind of scientific
answer to the question, when I already know the answer.
My life
has already been designed for me. This is something I have believed since
I was a small child. Before, I was even able to give it a name, I just
knew, that my life was already purposed. I of course didn’t know the
purpose and didn’t know why, and still am not sure why, but I didn’t know why I
was purposed.
I’ve
just always known that everything that happened to me in my childhood happened
to help other people. I thought for a very long time that was my way of
explaining it away. It was my way of making it digestible in my
mind. It was my coping mechanism, so to speak. I didn’t have
answers for the horrible things I experienced and witnessed growing up so I
just said, there must be a reason for this, and maybe it’s because, I am going
to help someone else when I am older. I am going to help other people,
who go through what I am going through now.
Now,
that I am an adult, which still feels very odd to say, but I guess I am.
I can give that childhood understanding a name, and His name is Jesus. I
don’t really ever remember asking God to stop the abuse from happening in my
life; I just wanted to survive it. I still want to survive
it. I want to help other people survive it, and turn victim into
victor. I want to show people that even though life started out poorly
God can and will take what you have been given and make it something beautiful.
I don’t
believe in coincidences, never have. I’ve never believed that things
happen by chance. I’ve also never believed in luck. I don’t
think that random things that just happen are just that random. I believe
they are all either signs, directions or markers for us from God. I
guess this is why I’ve never been one to gamble either. I’ve always kind
of found it useless, because I am blessed anyway. When I put a
nickel in a slot and I get a nickel back am I supposed to think that’s
luck? It just doesn’t make sense in my brain.
I have
a habit of finding penny’s heads up when I am on vacation, and this is the
closest thing I would say, I have to luck, but even then I pray when I find
them.
I
truly believe that God has a purpose for every person that comes to this earth.
I believe that before our soul enters into a physical body, God already knows
who we are going to be. I believe that he already has our days
planned. He knows our decisions and our ends before we take a breath of
air. Before conception even happens He knows who we are intended to
be. He knows what family you will be part of, what school you will
go too, what friends you will have. He will know where your first kiss
is, the first time you make a touchdown and the first time your heart is broken.
God sees
the beginning from the end, so He has to see your life before your life
began. He has to know when you are going to make a wrong move and exactly
where you are when you come back to Him. He will see all the struggles
and all the smiles; He will hear your silent prayers and your shouts of joy.
He knows all about you before you do. We often say that our parents
know us better than anyone, and I think that’s not true, God knows us better
than anyone.
God
knows how many hairs we have on our heads, how many tears we will shed and how
many bones we will break. He has numbered the stars in the sky and has
given vibrant colors to the flowers in the fields, so He has to know infinitely
more about you and me then anyone else does, He created us.
So, we
all agree, coincidences don’t exist, so… That means you are exactly where
you are supposed to be? That means that you are chosen to be the exact
person you are, right now. That means at 10:16 pm I am exactly where God
expected me to be when he saw the photo album of my life.
Jesus
says in John 15: 16 You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you and I have
appointed you (I have planted you), that you might go and bear fruit and keep
on bearing, and that your fruit may be lasting (that it may remain, abide), so
that whatever you ask the Father in My Name (as presenting all that I AM), He
may give it to you.
The
first line of that verse is what sparked all of this tonight. I
often wonder why God has lead me down this very new road of writing. This
is not something I have ever wanted to do, or have ever been good at
doing. I am a horrible speller, and grammar and punctuation, well; as I
am sure you can see it’s not my strong suit. So writing… not necessarily
what I would ever consider myself doing, ever!
I also
never would have pictured my life to be the way that my life has turned out, so
far. I would never have pictured myself, unmarried and without children
at this stage in life. I would never have said to myself years ago, you
will be sitting down and having conversations with God. But all of these
things have and are happening. So when I read the first sentence of this
verse tonight, I thought I have been chosen. I have been appointed, and so
have you!
Wherever
you are on your journey of life, know that it’s exactly where you are supposed
to be. Whether that is lying on the floor crying (literally or
figuratively) out to God for help and understanding, or the complete opposite
and happiness has washed over you like a cloud, know you are where God wants
you to be.
We
question all the time what’s our purpose, what are we meant to do with our
lives, what are we supposed to do with our lives. I can’t answer any of
them for you, sorry, but what I can tell you is that no matter where you are in
the search for those answers, you are where you are meant to be.
You will find all the answers you need when you seek God.
Seek
God above everything else. Seek God before you seek money. Seek God
before you seek advice from friends or family members. Seek God before
you seek drugs or alcohol. Seek God before you anything.
He
tells us in His word that if we Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His
righteousness all these things will be added unto you. We must
start with the one who started it all. Go to the creator. He
created you. He knows the beginning to the end, so He will know all the
details in between. He will know how to answer you or guide you. He
will know how to heal you and uplift you. He will have wisdom designed
specifically for you. His wisdom will be like a new suit, tailored just
for your measurements.
God is
waiting on you. He knows that you have not chosen Him, but He chose you,
so go to Him and know that you are exactly where you are meant to be!
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